Lucidious - Used To

Yeah! Used to
I used to feel like the world was against me
I used to feel like no one understands me
I used to write in the back of my class
I heard them talking, but never attached
Focusing in music but somehow I pass
I tend to leave before anything less

I hate a lot of things that I used to do
I used to fight for no reason in school
I'm feeling bad now that made fun of you, I'm sorry for that
Blame in the trauma inside of my head
Blame in the angry inside of my chest

Too many words that I shouldn't haven't said
I'm tired of lying so I'll tell the truth
I'll manipulate you just to get through
You called a home but it felt like a roof
So I took on everyone I knew
How many bottles I went through?

All I know, all I know I'm not in control
If you really knew the person that I am inside
You might run away
In the mirror I watch you brake
I don't recognize a lot of shit I did back in the days

Make fun of people is something that I used to do
Blame my fathers for my problems is something that I used to do
Judging all this bodys, the way they look is what I used to do

Getting addicted to some medications is what I used to do
Is what I used to do, is what I used to do
The world we're living in is burning and they say we knew you
Is what we used to do, is what we used to do
All you're gonna do in different is that is for you to choose

Always got lost in the loose, never got stuck in the rise
So many people look up to me only because I'm speaking my mind
I've been looking for something that felt like a void
But I'm in a space that I cannot define

All of that kids are wondering why
You're looking for answers that I cannot provide
One step or two and three, run away from the human that I used to be
I'm in a new degree, but this is the truth that I refuse to see

I'm standing alone in this mountain, coming up
I'm just counting down, got a problem
Just cutting down all of the friends that were not around

All I know, all I know I'm not in control
If you really knew the person that I am inside
You might run away
In the mirror I watch you brake
I don't recognize a lot of shit I did back in the days

Way too many thoughts for me to sleep at night
It took a couple of years for me to come back out and see the light
Writing hundreds of songs, most of them were tossed aside

Take a peak inside my mind, I offer you a peace of mine
The greatest gift that we've been given is the gift of time
And if you growing in the past days then you should not allowed it
In what you used to do, the person that you used to be
I'm killing of the villain that I used to be and thats what is legit